Is there light?

Late for every thing.. digital.. writing… English songs..forgot to dance (used to do ,which only one in my life happiness) forgot smile(fake nowadays)
Now I feel I waste my time..or I was no enough mature to think about me…

Lost in darkest world..like boyfriend..fun.. how to look good…family politics…marraige only thing (which stil not made for me ..life is more than this no one can understand now I know still scary in society)..then job to survive ..yes survive only..there is also politics..lot of hard work for basic needs ..lot of work..no output..no respect..

So many things I struggle.. emotional.. financial.. physical.. legally..stil alone..stil bad..stil lost

Wo god despite that stil know sense of fashion style..dance..music.. fitness freak..stil have hope now I should do…else life wil vanish…half already gone..stil m no one..

Love my self.. appreciate…caring..now wanna become slefish